It's another one of those nights where it's that irritating, dry, static hot air when I feel like any attempt at doing anything,
even just blanking out,
would just seem futile.

It really DOES feel like I'm non-existent.
Not in a self-pitying kind of way but in a more bizarre, awful reality that I'm just a walking slab of meat.

No conscience, no soul.

Sometimes,
living in a dream is just scary.

Then I realize...


...


I'm just being hormonal.
Whoooooops.







P.S. Contrary to how 'emotionally disturbed' this entry may seem, Owl City's Fireflies and all their other songs are extremely ADORABLE. Go! Download! Listen! NOW.

Note to self:
STUDY LA, WOMAN! D:

Twenty seven days to our Day of Judgement.
Twenty seven days to the beginning of the end.
Twenty seven days to our slow but inevitable Merdeka.

I just hope my Merdeka will be as sweet as I want it to be...

Sometimes, it's just hard to draw that line between childishness and adultism.

I'd like to define it as drawing a dotted line:

RIDICULOUS theory, but hey, I quite like the idea heheh
*syiok sendiri*

Anyway.
Words and I haven't been the best of friends lately.
There is just NO chemistry whatsoever between us.
Hopefully, the mess we've gotten ourselves in doesn't last...
My first impression of Words so understanding of me was a total fraud.

Sigh... Botheration.

Maybe I should just throw you guys a potful of my art if it does 'express' me better.

But SPM...
38 days away.

WORDS DEBBEH'S BRAIN, WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME?

School is inevitably upon us. Again.
The last holidays before THE BIG WHOOPING D-DAY(s).

Getting into the routine of studying is not fun,
but I guess it'll have to do.

Kicking off the holidays with a trip to a HIV Home in Setapak was... Very eye opening.
Always that bitter sweet moment when you visit an orphanage and come home feeling grateful, lucky, heart-broken... The works.
PJI, one more visit there please? ),:

Hari Raya at Suzanna's.
Then multiple family outings to Kenny Rogers, A Famosa Waterpark and the cousin's out of curiosity of their new puppy.

And no AAR concert.
This time la.
Aiyah, someone take me to a BETTER concert next time la, okay?

KIDNAP ME!! ),:

So school. Bad trial results.
Here I come...

Or as us Chinese would say,
'kau kau kau'.

If you haven't spent it as 'specially' as you would have thought you would,
(for instance, flunking your Science Trials when you should be doing far better)
don't worry.

There's always 10.10.10, 11.11.11 and 12.12.12.
3 years to go :D

So I'll tell you what I did specially for today:



I lived it kau kau kau!



Jeng jeng jeeeeeeeeng.
Revolutionary or WHAT? :D

But eh. Isn't everyday supposed to be special anyway?
So just stop, sit back and enjoy life for awhile.

Like maybe, appreciate these little household critters every now and then:

Siblings and supposedly life-changing exams intrigue me.
It's funny how their reaction varies so much from one anothers'.
Very funny indeed.
(It's fun to poke fun at them about it too heheh)

It's hard to believe it's my last year of school.
They weren't joking when they said life passes in a blink of an eye.

UPSR tomorrow.
It's the starting point of THE series of considerably easy governmental exams.

Eh.
Back to Trials now...
Eek.